Archive for June, 2009

Changes

I was just thinking how how many changes there have been in my life.
And about how much I have changed.

The people in my life have come and gone. Friends, family, loves.
People have come back into my life from the past.

Different jobs and careers, different interests and hobbies.
Different life experiences.

I was having a coffee with a friend I’ve known for over 10 years today and made a comment to her about how much my life has changed in the past 2 years, 5 years, 10 years.

So very much change.

Many of the anchors in my life are gone.
The touchstones and the guiding lights.

This past week I found out someone I went out with in the past had passed away.

I can’t seem to escape this surreal feeling, that somehow the life I have today is such a different thing. Something in the state of flux, evolving.

I ask myself, what do I want out of life?
In some ways, the answers have not changed.

It is about the simple things.
The blessed shared moments with people I care about.
Having the basics to get by.

Thinking about this wonderfully mysterious thing called life.

I don’t take life for granted because I have seen the tough & nitty gritty side of life.

I often thank God for the miracle of each day I draw breath.
For the very many simple blessings and graces of my life.

I even thank God for the hard lessons, the tough times when I try to find the lesson I need to learn. There is value in everything.

But there has always been change and there will always be change.
My life has never been static, but a moving and flowing and ever-changing creation.

Sometimes I am thrilled with change.
And sometimes the changes make me sad.

I have been feeling a mix of both lately.
And wondering what it all means.

The jury is still out.

But like Bowie says :
Time can change us – but we can’t change time.

Waiting Time Meditations

You know those moments when you´re waiting somewhere?

Waiting to see a doctor, get some government document, waiting in line, waiting waiting waiting?

I consider those little inconsequential moments to be little blessings in my life.

Why?

Because I use those moments in my life to meditate.

I check in on me and say hello self, how are things with you?

I check in on myself in those moments and think of my life and the meaning of it. Sometimes I think about where I want to go – the next step. Sometimes I use those moments to count every single blessing in my day. Sometimes I just send love out into the universe, to all those people around me, also waiting.

Sometimes I just breathe.

I treasure those little waiting time meditations because they are like a mini little mental vacation in the middle of my very busy life.

Waiting time meditations.

Can´t wait for my next appointment!

Anima Blue 🙂


Video Montage: The Flow
Following the flow of the universe, with a photo montage I created. The song is "Twisted Hair" by Robbie Robertson & The Red Road Ensemble, featuring the sublime operatic voice of Sioux singer Bonnie Jo Hunt, who sings over the sound of crickets.
Also posted on youtube:

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