Posts Tagged 'life'

The Voice and The Silence

In order to find my voice, I had to lose my voice.
Life is funny that way, no?

I recently came down with a throat infection and literally had to stop talking. And those who know what a chatty cathy I can be, would know that losing my voice would definitely impact me.

But I discovered that I liked having no voice.

I was stuck at home, voiceless, delirious with fever, and it gave me time to think about things. Yes blogs I want to write. But also about my dreams and things I want to accomplish in my life.

Suddenly I had a craving for complete silence, going beyond just the silencing of my own voice, and I turned everything off, to not hear the sounds – the noise – distracting me from my thoughts.

The only thing I listened to was the whispering of the trees. I had missed hearing it, noticing it, that soft sigh. For the whispering of the trees is a sacred sound to me. It reminds me to look around at this miraculous thing called life and the miraculous organisms living around me. It reminds me to look deep inside myself, to listen to my own heartbeat.

With the whispering of the trees I connect to a profound Silence. A silence felt in my soul. Kind of like the mad scientist’s aha! moment, but sounding more like a simple YES. In that simple YES there is a remembering of who I am and my soul’s path in this life.

The timing of this also fit in well with my reading a whole bunch of books from one of my favourite authors, The Great Alchemist, Paolo Coelho. More about his writings to come in another blog.

I had forgotten the bliss I felt when reading Paolo Coelho’s books. In his writing there is a sublime simplicity, a Truth of All Things, which often makes me stop to absorb these wonders.

And with the five Paolo Coelho books I read within my convalescence, it also brought me back to that sacred and profound Silence of The Soul. When the soul realizes its magnificence and abundance and is simply happy to *be*.

I hope you are blessed with a Silence of The Soul as well.

 Anima Blue 🙂

Changes

I was just thinking how how many changes there have been in my life.
And about how much I have changed.

The people in my life have come and gone. Friends, family, loves.
People have come back into my life from the past.

Different jobs and careers, different interests and hobbies.
Different life experiences.

I was having a coffee with a friend I’ve known for over 10 years today and made a comment to her about how much my life has changed in the past 2 years, 5 years, 10 years.

So very much change.

Many of the anchors in my life are gone.
The touchstones and the guiding lights.

This past week I found out someone I went out with in the past had passed away.

I can’t seem to escape this surreal feeling, that somehow the life I have today is such a different thing. Something in the state of flux, evolving.

I ask myself, what do I want out of life?
In some ways, the answers have not changed.

It is about the simple things.
The blessed shared moments with people I care about.
Having the basics to get by.

Thinking about this wonderfully mysterious thing called life.

I don’t take life for granted because I have seen the tough & nitty gritty side of life.

I often thank God for the miracle of each day I draw breath.
For the very many simple blessings and graces of my life.

I even thank God for the hard lessons, the tough times when I try to find the lesson I need to learn. There is value in everything.

But there has always been change and there will always be change.
My life has never been static, but a moving and flowing and ever-changing creation.

Sometimes I am thrilled with change.
And sometimes the changes make me sad.

I have been feeling a mix of both lately.
And wondering what it all means.

The jury is still out.

But like Bowie says :
Time can change us – but we can’t change time.


Video Montage: The Flow
Following the flow of the universe, with a photo montage I created. The song is "Twisted Hair" by Robbie Robertson & The Red Road Ensemble, featuring the sublime operatic voice of Sioux singer Bonnie Jo Hunt, who sings over the sound of crickets.
Also posted on youtube:

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